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September 2019 was a month that changed my life, it started with my own personal scare with breast cancer. I found a lump in my breast and was hoping that the doctor would tell me everything was OK, however with my mum fighting stage 4 breast cancer I heard the words that will haunt me forever. that day in September 2019 I experienced the first part of a journey my mum was currently on. Mrs Mackie I can feel 3 lumps and I would like further investigations.
Seeing my mum put on a brave face through so much pain and torture I couldn't help but fear the worst. With all credit to the breast clinic I was seen 5 days after being referred. The whole appointment was faultless, the care and compassion I received was second to none. I was lucky as when they decided to aspirate my cyst I was instantly given the all clear.
I remember as clear as day the sound of relief in my mums voice when I told her I am all clear, the very last thing she wanted was to die knowing that she couldn't be there for me whilst going through the exact same thing as her.
The next 2 weeks after my 'all clear' I felt a bond with my mum like no other. I was petrified at the thought of going through what she is, a little insight to the enormity of what she has been through made me incredibly sad, but I also admired her strength to have gone through all of this being so strong.
We had 2 weeks of being on a level of understanding and compassion with eachother and appreciating what we actually had...….LIFE.
I really wish it could have been a whole lot longer but unfortunately mum took a turn for the worse and within 5 days of being in hospital mum passed away with us all holding her hand, desperately telling her how much we loved her and was going to miss her, just a few minutes to tell her so much, there just wasn't enough time to tell her just how much she meant to me.
This was a road I never wanted to travel down, a rollercoaster of grief, and it is the toughest road I have travelled so far.
My mums funeral showed me just how much she was loved and how many people she had inspired, she really was an incredible and brave woman. she gave so many years of her life to fostering, she had unique interests and amazing skills. She loved people, especially children and loved to help children who were disadvantaged in life. most of all she loved life.
It has taken me a few months to gather myself, especially as despite my 'all clear' I have breast cancer looming in the background. It is like the monster under the bed, waiting for you to get out and knock you off your feet.
So I have decided to face my demons, I want to be strong enough to fight whatever may or may not challenge me in my future.
I want to give myself the best chance in life but I want to make a difference to everyone else in my journey too.
So obesity is the biggy, it one that I know if I can tackle I will give myself the best chance in life and reduce my risk. I have decided to set myself a goal to loose 3 stone in 3 months and try and raise as much money as I can in the process for a very good cause. You donation will keep me going. I love my food and have always failed at any diet I have ever tried, so I need your help.
The more I raise, the more I hope to loose. I am no super model and I am very body conscious so giving regular updates on myself is completely out of my comfort zone, but to keep my mums memory alive it has to be worth it.
Maybe my journey will inspire you to keep at your new years resolution and equally give you the best chance in life too.
So this one is for you mummy, the bravest woman I know. May the funds I raise help others in the same boat you were in and they never have to suffer the way you did. Love you Mum x
